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I wanted to learn Italian dammit!

Oh the things you learn when medical shit gets tangled up with life.  Your vocabulary expands into a different dimension.   It's a foreign language, only not as much fun.   I always wanted to learn Italian.
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I guess "doctor" will be my 2nd language for now dammit.   My brain isn't equipped for learning 2 new languages.  I blame that on Chemo brain, which is a real thing people.   Ask Le Google.   But today we learn the new word; Neuropathy.

See when medical shit happens, you get to learn a whole bunch of new words and terms.  Words like Chemo brain and  neuropathy;  noo-rop-uh-thee.  Not your everyday word.   But I do try to say it with an Italian accent, just for fun.   And I use hand gestures, usually with the middle finger pointing about while speaking about it.  It deserves that and more.    

In the beginning I kept wanting to say Necromancy instead.    It's so totally not the same thing.   Although Necromancy does involve communicating with the dead, I'm not there yet.

Anyways....

Neuropathy is a side effect of chemo.    It feels like having your feet (and hands) go to sleep in an ice block while wearing socks (or gloves) with sand in them.  It's totally weird.   It's on that edge of tingly/ numb/creepy feeling, that never goes away.   It also makes you walk like a drunken sailor sometimes which may result in people asking if you're high.    Which would be amusing except for that little episode happened at work and I had to explain NOO-ROP-UH-THEE  to them.  I tried to do the "scouts honor" finger sign after explaining why I was walking down the hall and bumping into the wall and door frames, but since neuropathy also affects your hands it looked like I was giving them the peace sign instead, which didn't help my case.   fyi, HR does not have a sense of humor.

And try button pushing while raiding.   I hit the wrong key and ended up in the raid boss's lap.   Yea that was interesting.   Neuropathy is an add on that conflicts with WoW, but you can't uninstall it.

BUT, the absolute worst thing about neuropathy is having to give up my 4"-5" stilettos.   Le sigh.  I love my stilettos.   But life is all about compromise so I now have to wear 2"-3" heels;  or flats.   Flats! UGH, the inhumanity of it all.   And you can't even call 2"-3" heels, stilettos.  They're like training heels for the real thing, stilettos.   I'm grudgingly adjusting, but I'm keeping these damn 3" heels for as long as I can, or the next thing you know I'll be wearing orthopedic shoes with knee socks.   No sir, not me.  No way, no how.

So even though I may walk like a drunken sailor in my 3" heels and maybe fall and break an ankle or a hip, I'll look damn fine doing it.

Ciao Bella.






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